Jul 4, 2012

[SUM] - ...



"At least one, usually more silent part of my psyche used to suddenly speak up to me during the strangest of occasions. >>You need to enjoy this a bit more!<< it cried out fiercely without cause nor reason. What a twisted little remark it had been as I come to think of it. Something I never fully understood, at least not until the very end. At least not until now, the outlining of my face vaguely reflecting from the dulled puddle of curdling blood."


Jun 22, 2012

[SUM] - Getting to know your own Main Character

Who would have imagined that this is something rather difficult to get done? Especially as 'main characters' are usually so shiny and pristine or dominant and impulsive or at least so frail and useless (in the beginning) that you just have to remember them one way or the other.

But how to get your Average-Joe to be the hero of whatever you want to build up and stand out of the grey-ish lot?

The first response will typically be that this is a difficult process... and yeah it is. Why fool you and feed you a blatantly obvious lie? As with any person you will have to get to know him/her just as you'll have to with any human being you might meet out in the streets of wherever you're living. It takes a bit of time and mostly patience as you slowly build up trust.
Sure this sounds ludicrous at first, especially if you actively keep in mind that we are talking about a fictional person that YOU want to create, but you will soon enough begin to see the truth behind this one little sentence.  And quite understandably you don't want to model every last character after yourself or close friends/relatives (naturally those are the first people you'll think off trying to get a sudden inspiration - and I'll promise: in most cases it'll be more successful than looking at an orange).

BUT... this is a description of a long and complex process that's only scratching the surface. More interestingly this 'process' can go one as long as wish for it to last and about as deeply too. Aside to that it is something very personal, almost intimate (maybe a poor choice of words) because you are after all in the process of creating your own fake little human being (or non-human being).

Sadly this is also a bad topic to give people advice on, as everyone will experience this process very differently. We are all motivated, stimulated by different things and this easily carries over to being creative as well.

Yet as you see I'm mainly blabbering on without an actual lead or substance to it... so I might as well refer to the current character I'm working on.
At the moment he is most likely to be called: Michael Fields.
To make it easier on you and to actually create a suitable character you'd better know what kind of story you are interested in writing (and have a general idea of the plot) - in this case we would end up with something on the lines of: Angst, Paranormal, Horror(-Fantasy).
Going from there a profession also usually helps you out. Picking something too close to your own won't necessarily help you out as proper research will fill any gaps - though you might have to invest a good bit of time on that part. In this particular case we'll go with: Author.

These are (in my opinion) 2 of the core things (the name isn't really all that important) to set up the typical ways how your character would react to most situations. The profession usually gives your character a general direction to either follow or actively ignore and define him that way.

From this point onwards I usually get set on creating a physical setting in the back of my head - a small town e.g. whatever fits the general notion of your story as well as the social surrounding of this main character. Then go ahead and add some flavouring like a murder perhaps and connect it to your future protagonist. For instance you'll really want to know if this character is falsely accused of the crime at hand, or maybe even rightfully so... the 'how' doesn't matter too much at this point in time, though the 'why' might.

Either way... put all the ingredients together, mix 'em, blend 'em and you'll get an idea of where you are heading and most important of all: a feeling for how your protagonist will probably react to most of the things he'll have to face.

Now, if you've already come this far and you're not feeling ready yet to put down the whole story one by one, you probably should start writing down more or less short paragraphs of dialogue, or inner monologue your protagonist would/could/should use in the story. Maybe you'll end up actually using it! (Don't be afraid to edit or cut things from your drawing board.)

To get back to the first-hand examples - two quotes I took from mister Fields that will most likely both make it into the finished text/story:


*commenting on an old almost-ex-girlfriend of his*
"People usually wondered how long it would take for the two of us to finally get together. However my response to these ever-so-often only silently mouthed questions always remained to be the same, at least in essence. Changing over the years from me shouting 'NO! Girls are icky!' up to 'Cut the crap and shut the fuck up!' after one last rather harsh rejection I received from her at the start of our first term of College."


*his general way of introducing himself*
"Michael. Michael Fields, though you may call me Sebastian should you ever forget. Just don't expect me to take too kindly to that..."


Now after giving you these two quotes from my notes the really interesting question(s) start(s) to arise... how do you get the guy who said the stuff from above to voice something like:

"The land may melt, the sea may burn and the sky shall fall - but the mind remains to be eternal."

And only if you are able to answer this one question, how did this change occur - you will be able to create a being that actually seems believably realistic. The character you set out to create lives and thrives upon the task you present them with and/or the change(s) he will have to face.
Easier said than done and it would be too easy to be taken by the hand and walked through all of it without giving it your all. These are things you need to do for yourself, or it will never be truly 'your character'. But that is just my opinion.

In any case... it's been a long one today after such a long while of... well... not much. And it even had a topic... gets better by the minute.

As always, thanks for reading and have a great day/weekend (it's not too far away anymore!)
Marc, currently part-time trainee

Jun 6, 2012

[SUM] - Contemplating or Procrastinating?

It could be either of both by now, could it not?
Well as far as this update goes, I am not going to repeat myself with the obvious things, all of which have already been said waaaay to often.

But... what now?

Well first and foremost of all: I'm still here and I'm still writing stuff down. In other words: I'm getting my shit together to actually write that next story (damn it! I'm getting reluctant calling it a book... taking a step backwards isn't all that great). And oh boy do I have to. Once upon a time a single author was good with writing one book per year on a fairly regular basis, two was way more than exceptional... or at least the old stuff finally getting down to be published after years and years of being kept back (rotting away). Nowadays though things seem to be rapidly heading down a maelstrom of cheap and volatile entertainment, with the Internet readily waiting only the stretch of a finger away if you're even only remotely close to a smartphone.
So nowadays, with the reader knocking quite literally on the electrical doorstep of the author him- or herself fueled by the constant craving for new content this one-per-year policy just doesn't really work any more. And then there are those authors who tackle this problem so energetically that they end up over-doing it - e.g. with 12 books a year - or should I say e-books? I'm not even sure if I should call those "books" to begin with.

Sounds lovely, doesn't it?

But seriously... 12 "books" per year? ... I'm not even going to go into more detail about that. Of course there are other ways to get around that problem as it seems to be unfolding. Ah but I'm ranting again, so best to cut it here. I'm already feeling a good fourty years older after that. If I got you interested in a shallow article about this topic covered by the New York times have a look at this.

This is a great start into posting entries for the blog this month so far, isn't it? I've hardly done a thing for this site in a month and now I come back complaining about authors having to do more.
If nothing else I at least managed to achieve a new all-time low for views of the blog in May, but nevertheless - thank you to all the Russian spambots invading blogger for at least some site-traffic and that one guy who found my blog by searching for the IUPEC name of MDMA. Cheers to you (and of course to everybody else lingering around every once in a while).

One last thing though - I already hinted at it a while ago: I'll be moving house in the midst of July so don't expect too much over summer except for me working behind the ever-present curtain. I will however give a glimpse maybe every once in a while.

Everything important out of the way, all the ranting said and done I'm gonna leave you now to some classical music as I exit the scene. Enjoy.


*~*


A man still belongs into the fray of a raging battle! Sadly the means of this fight have changed more or less drastically over the centuries. The swords we once would have wielded are now pens and sheets of paper, the fetid arena has turned into an office space and the skill you measure your opponent by is no longer the strength behind the thrust of his sword arm but rather a bunch of marginal numbers scattered throughout databases and desks in places even you have never ever been before.


*~*

And for my next trick, I'm going to make all my free-time disappear.
As always, thank you very much for reading (you too - person searching for (RS)-1-(benzo[d][1,3]dioxol-5-yl)-N-methylpropan-2-amine).
Marc, wielder of axes and pens alike (damn you Diablo 3!)

P.S.: getting the search on for some new kittehs
P.P.S.: 3 new kittehs up

May 6, 2012

[SUM] - It's not much of a blog...

...if you don't update it regularly, is it now?
I know I've been slacking again, but what can I say? I'm a bit caught up with a couple of other things at the moment, a potential move being only one of many. But I'm not going to bore with that just now, at least not yet that is.
I'm just here to make clear that I, in fact, have not fallen off the face of the Earth and I'm pretty sure I haven't died - I believe the Internet is known for believing the strangest of things rather quickly (I lost count how many times Morgan Freeman has been declared dead by now), so... here I am!

Yeah, that's not really much, or well, anything at all to be honest, but what did you expect? Good news? I assume it's a bit too early for any of those. Damn you 6 week waiting time for a response!
On the other hand... you can't really blame the agencies for taking so long if you think about how many messages they get per day and all the stuff attached to them...

But so you don't go home completely empty handed, I have a couple of rather freshly taken down bits of text I'm looking forward to implement into the story 'Heavy Silence'. In which way or form, or if in this particular phrasing at all still undecided.


"It does naught matter as much to know what you want to be, rather than to know who you actually are."

"Funny people are often depressed, thought the depressed are not necessarily funny at all. Note the difference!"

"This world... It's all just beautiful lies and happy violence."


It's not necessarily what I'd say myself, but in a kind of way... yeah it is. Also note the pop-culture reference more or less pitifully hidden.

Anyways... I'm sorry that'll have to do for now. There will be a point in time, somewhen in the more or less distant future when I'll have a few actual bits of text to offer but that's still a good bit away (way to be unspecific, sheesh).
As always though, thanks for reading. Have a great weekend and a good start into the next week.
Marc, who the hell's that in the first place?


P.S.: I'll see what I can do 'bout a kitteh; also... had a glass of Japanese Whisky this evening... wow that stuff is surprisingly intense ...

Apr 17, 2012

[SUM] - Somnium Primum

So this is kind of a late update ... at least if you're living in Europe.

Somnium Primum, the title says it all - roughly translated we end up with "The First Dream"
(taking into account 'somnium' can mean a couple of things so you might also call it fever-dream - not too accurate though or well.. obviously 'nightmare')

What this means is that I'm actually doing what I wanted to do - re-editing Sleeptalking - again.
And as this part of the story can be found over on my page for Sleeptalking, I will get on updating that right away after I finished this post here. You want a new kitteh as well, you say? Well... maybe. Let me think about it.

As for today... you all will have to make due with this excerpt right here. Hope you'll enjoy it nevertheless.


*~*


Looking around she noticed that the trees were forming a kind of barrier around this place; they stood densely packed building this impenetrable wall. Was she not meant to be here, she asked herself under her voice? Was she an intruder on a sacred glade?
The wind picked up and grew stronger with every little step she took on her way closer to the pond.
The water appeared as clear as crystal, beautiful and enticing. Without doubt unusual, but why question? She clearly saw her image with the dark brown eyes and her skin as white as porcelain, there was nothing sinister about a natural mirror.  
The more time she spent in this place, even if it had been only mere minutes the more she could not help to think how beautiful all of this was and that some-when, as the opportunity might arise she should have to return here, best together with all her family. And still the feeling would not go away: something kept on telling her that she was not supposed to be here, something inside of her warned her that this was a dangerous place to linger about.
Just in this very second a strong gust of wind shot through the forest, bearing far more force than any before and Seraphine could not prevent herself from looking up to the wavering treetops above as her hair was thrown about wildly.
It took her breath away as she saw the hundreds of yellow glowing pairs of eyes looking down upon her. She could not make out what these creatures were but they seemed to reflect no light at all with their bodies. The only things visible were their bright yellow eyes.
In shock she made a few steps backwards away from the water without ever taking her eyes of the treetops and their pitch-black inhabitants. They were larger than bats, though probably not too much, little Seraphine had never seen a bat before.
Few seconds later she tripped on the slippery and wet grass losing her balance, gravity pulled her to a rest on the ground yet again, this time though amongst the wet blades.
Little did the girl care though, she was panicking again, looking around wildly for an opening between the smaller trees around her. She knew she would have to flee as there was no telling what those things above her might do to her, but nothing.
Not a single thing.


*~*


And there you go.
The editing has been going rather nicely over the course of the last few days, which actually doesn't mean anything to be fair so yeah... I'll be sticking to that for the next couple of days, weeks, hoping that it doesn't go all overboard like it did with MotT... damn that took me ages.

As always thanks for reading, hope you're having a great week.
Marc, not even a month left till the 15th of May - hurray!


P.S.:... Yeah you got me, I'll put up another kitty.

Apr 12, 2012

[SUM] - One year down

And a lot more to go, hopefully that is.

On this day, one year ago I first created this blog here. At the time it looked a good bit different compared to now, mostly a lot less kittehs though. But yeah... one year, already looking back into the past? Nah... that's no good! I'll have to be looking forward to get things done, not backwards. And that's exactly what we'll do!

It's short-update-madness-time, as I have oh-so randomly decided just now!

Thirst things first - I spent a lot of today's time with creating a second blog. No worries though - I won't bore you to death with my ramblings on that one too. That blog is meant to be somewhat special: As you all should know I finished my re-editing, re-visioning of 'Bloodstained Shadows' not too awfully long ago and since that moment I tried to find another way to host it on my blog and not solely rely on fanfiction.net and well... fan fiction sites in general. So... here it is!


http://bloodstainedshadows.blogspot.de/


I tried to keep it as clean and clearly arranged as possible. Personally I like this design more than the one of e.g. fanfiction.net
The site is set up with bloggers "new" dynamic templates and is probably best viewed with the Sidebar version. Feel free to give them all a try if you so desire, but you will find some of them to be fairly pointless given the content.
It should - SHOULD - run on any browser by now, but you never know, do you? IE, chrome and FireFox seem stable though - which is a good start.

As usual, feel free to give the story a go, leave a comment (or review on any other sites containing BS-CoaLS)


Only thing unfortunately being I had to switch to blogger's new layout to get this new blog running, it's only a minor thing, still I don't really like it... at least it's current color-scheme isn't as pain-inducing as the earlier versions were.

Ah well... in other news, Sleeptalking is getting somewhere too... but it's still too early to go into any detail concerning that.

As always, thanks for reading, I hope you're having a great week. I, for my part will be travelling back to Bremen, most likely tomorrow, so expect a new post somewhat around Sunday.
Marc, bloggish

P.S.: New Kitteh uploaded, not necessarily an anniversary kitty, but it fits the general mood... yeah... something along those lines

Apr 8, 2012

Happy Easterz!


Happy Easter to all of you who celebrate this lovely holiday with the strange bunny hiding all the sweet sweet chocolate.
And of course to everybody who celebrates something else today, or even nothing at all - have a great day and a good start into the next week! (Spring seems to be finally here - yays)